Saturday, March 31, 2012

seduced by puppets

Getting rid of ghosts, of animals that have no heads, no tail in the intimate world, the experience of earth, abstract and obvious.  Empty flutes and breaks in arcs of knowledge, past fixed understanding.  Reaching disciplines to put oneself in the ultimate place of sharing the past, as well known as the continued search. 

The romantic idiots, improper in the words they dress in.  Looking like visions of impossible beauty, they try to open others as they open themselves.  Eccentrics, with intentions of eating each other’s minds, entering, imposing, suspended on gentle mountains and the velour of air, forcing their roles to be understood.

Towering with strings no one else is supposed to see.  What refinement, what sorrow, that moves our wooden bones like an only feather on a lake.

Artifices and edifices
Dimensions of reflections
Courses of deception- a disharmony between the players and spectators in the theatre of jokes.  Cities of victims, organized groups searching for truth.  Sects of philosophers, the terrible infants, of prose, of concepts, to criticize, to use. 

A sulphurous life – born into the disadvantage of your generation and the half generation before you.  Raw space in language leaving perspective of ancient language.  Such aggressive precision, psychoanalyzing, forcing others to say what they should.  Seduced by irony, souvenirs to share with everyone.  Turning and converging the young.  When little voices invade.

Traveling through their favorite creations deciding they’d live forever.  Masters of architecture and stupidity.  Elaborate simplicity, practicing your sense.  Working on notions, of other worlds and oracles, modern gods and geniuses come to speak to the public.  Understanding hyperbole encompasses all.  Looking at the fluorescence in others, past the medium lines to the individuals who’ve cannibalized their intelligence, their opaque voices.  Figuring most philosophers are dead or modest.

Possessed by secrets, wanting to do somersaults in the love of truth of life, in death, in continuation.  Knowing we're not essential to this life.  Graced with hope, not urgency, provoking rivers of criticism, celebrating or not celebrating being thrown away.

The literal world, the digital world, the confused world, the plain world, the resembled world, the formed world, the traveled world, the consequences of the world, the profound world, the platforms of the world, the techniques of the world, the first world, the revolution of the world, the effected world, the given world, the quantities of the world, the changes of world, doubts of world, the new world, the touched world, the classic world of faculties, measures, transmissions, substance and subsistence, symptoms and introductions, of concepts, archives in the mobile and interested world, inherited from ancestors to our contemporary world.  To outlive ourselves, hysterical questions to bring us back to ourselves.  Progressing into the artificial.

Time Travel, 2010

E. Kelly's Spiritual Journey on Love One Another:
"You have to learn to love as you learn to play a violin.  though we may be born with an instinct for music, we are not born knowing how to express it perfectly.  The emotion of love is natural, but refinement is often necessary because love has become confused with pleasure."

Monday, March 5, 2012

the inner beyond

Exactly five years ago I took Kabbalah classes at the 92nd Street Y.  I remember the rabbi, his calmness, his dirty fingernails.  These are some of the things he taught me about the map of the beyond- inner not outer.

The inner beyond is a model of the outer beyond.  Developing on the idea that everyone has two souls, both spiritual and from God, these two pull in opposite directions: There is the divine soul and the animated soul.

The divine soul (Godly soul) turns attention toward God.  It provides the impetus to deepen our relation with God.  We have a place in us that yearns to be united with God and bound to God.

The animated soul turns attention toward your being.  Yourself.  It pertains to drives, yearnings, and needs.  It is regarding physicality.  All else is shaped in this soul. 

Apparently we are locked in between.  The question is why are we embedded in both?  Our task in this world is to unify these two souls, and blend them together.  The animated soul becomes stronger upon satisfying it.  We defeat it by starving it.  One strengthens their divine soul in the realm of intellect, the realm of emotion.  A temporary way of doing this is to hang out with a holy person- it uplifts, but you are just a passenger on a train; the train does all the moving.  And you can’t depend on a source outside of yourself. 

What we feel is driven by what we understand.  We shape our feelings according to our understanding.  Our mind sits on top of our emotion and our understanding rationalizes our desires.

If the understanding is flawed, the outcome is distorted.  A belief - like fundamentalism - is what shapes the feelings of the heart.

When feelings are brought in without effort, from an outside source, those feelings don’t belong to you, they are only present in that moment.  When you are under someone else’s wings, it can bring you up, or it can bring you down.

When you try to do more- to do things right- you may fall on your face.  You can go back to lower than you were before trying.  And you say: “what’s the use?”  There’s a need to develop intense religious feeling to help cultivate the soul.  The mind is an expression of the soul, embodying two awarenesses: here (love), or far away (fear). The mind influences the feelings.  

It is harder to change your feelings than to change your mind. 

 South Carolina

E. Kelly's Spiritual Journey on Meditate:
"If you ask for guidance, you will get it.  If you fervently want to know God and complete freedom, you should meditate regularly.  The purpose of meditation is to have such control that you can shut out all your physical senses and enter, with expanded consciousness, into Spirit...  The miracle of the realization of God is that, in a world where everything grows old or falls apart or fails to live up to warranty, this is the one thing you can depend on.  It is the only thing you can depend on."