Monday, March 5, 2012

the inner beyond

Exactly five years ago I took Kabbalah classes at the 92nd Street Y.  I remember the rabbi, his calmness, his dirty fingernails.  These are some of the things he taught me about the map of the beyond- inner not outer.

The inner beyond is a model of the outer beyond.  Developing on the idea that everyone has two souls, both spiritual and from God, these two pull in opposite directions: There is the divine soul and the animated soul.

The divine soul (Godly soul) turns attention toward God.  It provides the impetus to deepen our relation with God.  We have a place in us that yearns to be united with God and bound to God.

The animated soul turns attention toward your being.  Yourself.  It pertains to drives, yearnings, and needs.  It is regarding physicality.  All else is shaped in this soul. 

Apparently we are locked in between.  The question is why are we embedded in both?  Our task in this world is to unify these two souls, and blend them together.  The animated soul becomes stronger upon satisfying it.  We defeat it by starving it.  One strengthens their divine soul in the realm of intellect, the realm of emotion.  A temporary way of doing this is to hang out with a holy person- it uplifts, but you are just a passenger on a train; the train does all the moving.  And you can’t depend on a source outside of yourself. 

What we feel is driven by what we understand.  We shape our feelings according to our understanding.  Our mind sits on top of our emotion and our understanding rationalizes our desires.

If the understanding is flawed, the outcome is distorted.  A belief - like fundamentalism - is what shapes the feelings of the heart.

When feelings are brought in without effort, from an outside source, those feelings don’t belong to you, they are only present in that moment.  When you are under someone else’s wings, it can bring you up, or it can bring you down.

When you try to do more- to do things right- you may fall on your face.  You can go back to lower than you were before trying.  And you say: “what’s the use?”  There’s a need to develop intense religious feeling to help cultivate the soul.  The mind is an expression of the soul, embodying two awarenesses: here (love), or far away (fear). The mind influences the feelings.  

It is harder to change your feelings than to change your mind. 

 South Carolina

E. Kelly's Spiritual Journey on Meditate:
"If you ask for guidance, you will get it.  If you fervently want to know God and complete freedom, you should meditate regularly.  The purpose of meditation is to have such control that you can shut out all your physical senses and enter, with expanded consciousness, into Spirit...  The miracle of the realization of God is that, in a world where everything grows old or falls apart or fails to live up to warranty, this is the one thing you can depend on.  It is the only thing you can depend on."

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